I have always had a complicated relationship with my periods.
Among my friends, I was the last one to have mine. And it did make me feel a bit isolated.
I couldn’t really talk to my classmates about the very thing they whispered and giggled about, after learning about it in school, I was worried why am I the only one who is different from other girls. And then when I was 15, that happened to me, and it didn’t seem so funny.
My periods was way worse than most of my friends, I bled more; it lasted for eight to ten days instead of the typical five to seven, and the hurt!
Wearing super absorbent pads (Pad was a luxury and I was allowed to use it only when I go to school. Other times when I was at home, Mom used to give a clean cotton cloth which I wash after every use and keep safe for the next period), my heavy bleeding made me feel like I didn’t have control over this particular bodily function. But the only relief was my period was extremely punctual, I knew when its gonna come.
Tampons and menstrual cups were not popular those time so the only known option was pads. And I used to get rashes due to keeping two pads at a time and it feels extremely uncomfortable, like my little lady is in an oven.
The change in menstrual lifestyle
Fast forward, social media introduced tampons to me. I wanted to try them but was terrified to know that I have to put them inside. And no one ever told me how to use one.
But I took the help of youtube videos , andddd…. when I used one for the first time, I left the cardboard applicator in. And the other time the thread came off and I had to fish for the tampon inside. Thats horrible. And slowly I got used to it, become an expert in putting my tampons in.
The uncomfortable feeling when I felt during the initial days fade away and sometimes even I forget that I am on my periods. Yes, the cramps will remind me that I am bleeding, but the tampons never made me feel anything abnormal.
And during my periods I am overly conscious about the odour, what if my colleagues get the foul smell? and checking my back every time after getting up from my chair.?
Ohh gosh, I am wearing two pads and what if those lines are visible from my back because put on a tight jeans.? what if my favourite panties get stained?
No more worries about all this when I use a tampon.
But if you ask me tampons are better than pads? everything comes with its own pros and cons and should be very very careful while inserting and removing,
also we can not see how stained our tampon is, so it’s better to keep a timing to change it according to the flow. Last but not least, ALWAYS..ALWAYS keep an extra pad,
because it’s gonna be really hard changing a tampon in public toilet.
Aadhira : Just a small town girl trapped in a big town. Amature at everything. I live for the moments you can’t put into words, and few things transcend a cup of coffee and someone to share it with.
Hotelier by profession. Still living the quarter life crisis.